Each time I choose to believe that the grass is just as green on my side... it fuckin turns yellow as if its just to spite me. Guess the grass is INDEED greener elsewhere.. hiazzz... looks like I'll have to scout around now.
Know any greener pastures?
some sudden thoughts.
In the still of night, a breeze swept those cheeks dry.
Under the bask of lunar glow, those watery glaze sparkles;
Beneath the constant pounding of life, a searing ache lingers.
Over those stubborn thoughts, the mind persists on...
-trav
In a rat wheel...
Another week has past.. so quiet, so fast, so uneventful. It’s getting somewhat boring, with nothing much to really look forward to except for my long leave coming up soon enough.
Week after week, almost the same activities...meet the same people, go the same place, drink the same beverage, take the same road, do the same stuffs... it’s almost routine.
Well, not complaining here actually. It’s my choice to have such a lifestyle. I’m quite happy in a sense. Guess I like predictability, I like to know what my schedules are, I like to plan ahead. Or maybe I just like the assurance of what the road in front lies. Insecurity? maybe...
I can just predict that I'll be receiving comments telling me that in life, nothing is predictable.. life itself is unpredictable or you can't simply plan for everything... Ya, but for everything else... it's good that things don't come at the last minute & you're caught unprepared. Surprises are not always good things, ya?
Suntec Fortress
Guess by now, 4 million ears & more would have known or heard about the mega event that Singapore is currently hosting.
The venue.. Suntec City or rather Suntec Fortress as it's been morhped into. In all my 26 years here, I've never seen more police and security personnel in a single place before... not even during my 21/2 years in the army.
Steel barricades with barbed fences are surrounding the convention center, reinforced by huge concrete blocks to prevent even tanks from breaching through.
Hundreds of police, gurkas, & disaster relief personnel are present at every shift round the clock, every day.
Helicopters are circling the venue at regular intervals & from my desk at Suntec tower2... I can even see snipers & survellience personnel perched on rooftops all over the place.
Groups of heavily armed police & swat units patrol the entire area... not only in the convention center but also the shopping mall, foodcourt, lifts, toilets, every nook and corner you turn... you won't be able to walk 5 min before bumping into the next patrol.
Outside, even the dog unit are activated... patrolling the carparks, roads & the outskirts of the building.
Inside the main convention center which I managed to see the night before the barricades goes up... I'm somehow reminded of Changi airport. Metal detectors, red carpets, huge cascading water feature, police officers everywhere...
Yet, despite all the 'prison-like features'.. Suntec has been through a really good makeover. She was dolled up real good...
Every single road has been given a good facial (paved), every inch of land finely manicured & pedicured (amazing variety of flowers everywhere.. & yes, even sunflowers!!), had a good milk bath (every square inch of the building cleaned & disinfected... a few times!), a nose job (renovations are completed in 1/3 of the time!) & a new wardrobe (huge banners & posters.. & new lightings all around.)
She is indeed stunning!
Well, managed to take some pictures while dodging the half a dozen or so eyes monitoring your every movement from the boys in blue...
Guess the welcome doesn't extend to everyone..
(All pics courtesy of my Samsung E900... hehee..)
Will post more soon!!
Brainless week
I'm literally brain-dead. My head hurts so much it feels like it's about to give birth. Arrggghh..
I need a brain massage... anyone? =(
Thoughts..
A time of thought
A space of void
A pain of loss
A hurt of dread
A mind of heart
A vision of you
A scent of past
A touch of future
A tear of closure
A sea of aches...
Just an impromptu thought that crossed my mind... what it means? If you don't know... good for you! If you do... gimme a '5'!!
dblO
dblO.. haven't been there in ages. Just went there tonite & wow... Mhd Sultan is like a ghost town.. a far cry from the clubbing street of the country just a year or two ago.
Times have really changed.
Anyway, if you recall my previous entry about the design contest? I was there for the announcement of the winner.
Although my entry didnt win, I'm extremely elated & totally surprised that I was shortlisted at all in the first place as I didn't really put much thought and time into doing it. I'm honoured!
But I had a blast, free flow of Carlsberg (it's a God-send especially on a friday night!!), met an old friend there, & got to know some new friend.
The event ended slightly before 11pm & we headed to the dancefloor... gosh! It's empty!!!! On a friday night... Sad.
We left.
On our way out, I saw another 'friend' (Can't say who here.. ), still early we thought. So ended up catching Devil Wears Prada.
Not a bad show. Really admire the lead's courage of daring to break out & do what she really wanted.
Some pics we took... enjoy! 
My entry..!
Darn.. I think I look fat! It's the camera.. really!
This pic was from nightlife.sg website.. I should have 1 more from dblO... coming soon..
Francesca, dblO's Marcomm Manager. Great lady! Yay.. I get free guest list to dblO now! Woohoo..
Close-up of the cert they gave..
Neat!
What a swim..
"After a really tough swim, I'd finally managed to get out of the pool. Am I ready to take the plunge again in another pool? I really don't know man. So many pools are practically sending out invitations.
Tempting. "
cool...
I get a real kick going in & out of my new office nowadays... wanna know why?
take a peek..
Way cool eh? (In case you're scratching your head & littering the floor with your dandruff trying to figure what this gadget is... It's a fingerprint access scanner.) Makes me feel like I'm working in some secret goverment military lab that does top secret experiements like trying to find out if human farts can be turn to deadly biological weapons of mass destruction. ( Osama, I've just trademarked this patent, apply for a license if you wish to use this... =P )
Hmm.. now I can't use the excuse of not bringing my access card whenever I'm late. Damn.
For you.
This is for you. Who? If you can relate, it's you.
...
I can sense the feeling of helplessnes & lost you are feeling. The long nights of staring into space, the void inside you. Though you may deceive yourself by keeping your day busy with work, friends, boyfriend and activities... but deep down, you know very well that all that is just so 'surface'.
You need to find a direction & stick to it. If need be, reflect on yourself. 1 blame you... might not be your fault, 2 blame you... might still not be your fault, but if all blames you... time to step back & have a good look.
The humbled shall emerge victorious while the proud are destined to be its slave.
Many times in the hustle & bustle of working life, we tend to neglect the really important people in our lives who still stood by you regardless of how they've been treated. These are the people you should really treasure above EVERYTHING else.
One day, you are going to lose it all.. your work, your career, your wealth and your health.. but the only thing that matters then is that person/s..
just a little thought.. before I leave office for the night.
Something to laugh...
Okok... after so many serious entries, I guess it's time for a laugh..
This is pretty funny..
Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan? (anyone)
Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.
Caller: No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!
Operator: You are talking to someone! Who is this?
Caller: I'm Sam Wan (someone) And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent.
Operator: I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what'sthis urgent matter about?
Caller: Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother Noel Wan ( no one ) wasinvolved in an accident. Noel Wan got injured and now Noel Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan is on his way to the hospital.
Operator: Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!
Caller: You are so rude! Who are you?
Operator: I'm Saw Lee. (sorry)
Caller: Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!
Death in Perspective
Not long ago, I posted an entry on life, guess it's time for the other end of the rainbow.
You know, at times I would wonder when will the day that I’ll close my eyes for good, how will it be. Will I be missed, will I be remembered, what have I accomplished in my walk through life?
Sometimes I wondered too, I always seem to be the one taking the effort to keep in contact with long time friends. If one day, I were to leave this world... would anyone had known or realise?
I guess so far, I’d live a life without fear nor regrets.
Death is not a scary thing in my opinion, it’s the memory of your life that makes it sad. But I guess the hardest part of death is not the dead person, but the persons closest to the departed. In my view, that feeling is alot worse than death itself.
What is really scary is that all your memories will be gone. Much like your thumbdrive, imagine storing all your life's photos, videos, friends' contacts, your work, your love, your life...then one day someone just simply decided to reformat it. All gone.
Scary thought.
Who would I call when the end draws near...? There are a few people that I’d like to hear their voices again.
People whom are very very special to me, though she is no longer a part of my life. She had brought tremendous value & joy to my life then. Her angelic voice always a delight to hear, her calming & gentle touch always send bolts of excitement through my body.
Jason, my buddy of 13yrs ( & counting...) whom we practically saw each other grew up, though the different stages in life, sharing our views of everything & anything under the sun.
Carine, a special, special person. Someone whom can read me like a book. Someone whom I can share intimate details with, someone I could go to seek comfort & advice whenever a relatonship problem erupts. She had always hold a very unique place in my heart.
Angie, my dear hongkong friend. (I’m sure you’re reading this.. =P ). Though we know each other for not very long, but her timely and encouraging messages & sms never fail to brighten my day. Just a pity you’re not in Singapore though...
Also, Steven, Serene, John, Crix, Cheyanne, Michelle, Jenny and Anne.
To all these people, if I didnt get a chance to call you before I go... I’d just like to say a big “ Thank You!” Thanks for walking with me at some part of my journey in life. Your presence has made a big difference.
Lastly, before my eyes closes... I hope my family will be there.
I’ll tell them, Don’t be sad... God needs a new angel & He only wanted the best.
I came to this world crying... I just hope that when it’s my time to go, I’ll leave this world smiling.
Tribute to 'Crikey'
Steve Irwin, known as TV's "Crocodile Hunter," is being remembered as "a passionate conservationist and one of the proudest dads on the planet." Irwin, 44, died after being stung by a stingray while shooting a TV program off Australia's north coast. "He died doing what he loved best," his manager and friend John Stainton says.
"Thank you, Steve! For bringing us closer & instilling in us a greater understanding of wildlife. You & your legacy will live on in our hearts."
crikey!
Family
Week after week while I was at the beach, things that attracts me are really no longer the same as before.
Girls in bikini? No... surprisingly. (I'm not turning gay. Period.)
But this...
Yes, family with kids. I know, I know... though I'm turning 27... I'm still considered young in a sense but I always feel I'm an old man stuck in this body. Don't ask me why, but I always seems to get along better with friends or people much older. We seems to have more common topics & interesting discussions.
Hmm.. Anyway, yes... Kids, Family. Scary thoughts for many people.
But somehow, I'm really looking forward to it. I yearned for one... Like in the picture, I've always pictured myself bringing my wife & kids out to the beach, trying out the latest remote control hovercraft toy, building sandcastles or just lazing by the beach having a nice picnic.
I'll be snapping lots of pics & videocam the whole outing... making my home filled with framed pictures of the family, making dvds out of our family outings.. ahhhh... that's so nice, isn't it?
It'll be even better if my wife's a more outdoor kinda girl, we could go camping, the kids would be playing by themselves while me & my wife would just sit by the fireplace, chitchat... or just stare into the stars.
I guess I'm mentally prepared for a family, just not financially... & that's where I'm focusing all my energy on now.
And of course, I need to find a wife. Hahaa..
Good weekend
It's saturday & I'm back in office... but I just saw a sign that it's gonna be a gooood weekend.
What sign?
Here it is....
Heheheee..... :-D
(I love my desk...)
Life in Perspective
Life.
I believe many people at times will find life unfair, tiring, meaningless or just plain... sucks.
I too felt that way many times & on the rare occasion, I'd find life is good.
But it's during one of the darkest period of my life that I truly believe in this phrase; " Everything in life happens for a reason."
Yes, even when something bad happens... & you feel life has hit rock-bottom, it might just turn out to be a blessing in disguise.
Looking back at the last few months, I'm pretty certain that if what happened didn't happen. I'd never have accomplish what I'd accomplished.
13hr day (that's the min. by the way...) at work, + 2.5hr travelling time = 15.5hr/day
6hr sleep + 1 hr meals + 1hr shower/shave/toilet = 23.5hr/day
So, I'm practically left with less than 30min/day which is hardly enough to catch my breadth.
Tiring eh?
Yes, in fact... extremely draining especially mentally.
But somehow, I get up each morning feeling great. Ready for work, ready for more challenges.
Somehow, I felt a sense of fulfillment... knowing I left yesterday doing the best I could.
Hard to see myself now leading back my old lifestyle of knocking off at 6, going for dinner, movies or coffee. Yar, of course that was great especially with someone special but I guess God is trying to tell me to pull up my socks now & time for me to do some catching up.
Of course, stress & pressure is part & parcel of working life & no matter which industry, job or position you're in, it'll always be there. What I've learnt so far is... Don't be a slave to it, use it to your advantage. Learn how to turn any situation good or bad to your advantage.
Take stress for eg, when you feel stressed... look on the bright side, it shows you're capable & people have high expectations of you.
Pressure you say? It show's you're talented, people are giving you more & more reponsibilities.
So, you can say the glass is half-empty or you can say it's half-filled.
Take your pick.
T.G.I.F. !!
Hooray.. it's FRIDAY!! It's been a reaaaaally looooong week. So much work, so little time.. hiazz.. 13hr days are really not enough.
1 meal a day, I think I'm getting skinnier..... NOooooooo...!!
I'm SO looking forward to my weekend! The ultra relaxing day spend lazing at the beach, plugging in my mp3, reading up some books, with an ice-cold coke beside, sea breeze blowing through my hair.. aahhh.. that's life!
Thereafter, a short drive to East Coast park for some exercise, Blading!
Finish off with a dinner & coffee with some friends at a beach bar.
What a way to spend my sunday!
I just can't wait!! =)
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